After All
everything is already over.. and im not that very much happy.. i dunno but still sadness envolpes me..
major thesis is already done.. i just attended d cm/it nyt at casa marinero.. i already heard that the grades can be seen over the net and im excited to be home.. and with my surprise, tears started to fall..
luckily there are still some of my friends, specially michelle, my thesismate that encouraged me and tells me good things on how very good i am.. because at that very moment, i feel so down and most of all "BOBO".. =’(
i started to tell gidz that i dont wanna pursue this line of career anymore… that competition is tough and that i got an "almost floor grade" in my final and major thesis.. what a sad experience, right?!?! hehehe… darn…
days passed and still i cant stop thinking about everything.. after all the sleepless nights??? how come those sleepless nights didn’t work?!?! how come… i dunno… still bothers me.. im very deeply saddened.. =(
obviously i already graduated.. during the grad practice, i had the chance to have a glimpse of my classmates/batchmates, smiling and fooling around.. such a lovely picture.. except for one.. and definitely i wont be squealing her name… u just got a clue… and i wont forget wat u did to me last oct 14, 2005… i may not mean to u.. and u may not remember it… just one last message.. "magsama kayu, pareho nmn kau eh…." hahaha… there you go… u think, ikaw un??? i dunno…. hit me up i you think ikaw un… 
then came april 7.. i guess "seven" is now a badluck for me… people might ask, "anu feeling ng grad na??" … and my answer will be… "ewan ko.." coz i really didn’t felt it.. although the feeling of im goin to graduate already sinked in to me already right after the final submission of revised thesis… still, im emotionless.. EMPTY…
imagine yourself graduating and found yourself before the ceremony starts that youre already crying.. how could you feel the graduation with that scenario?!?! haay… i didnt care if my make up makes me ugly anymore instead of making me beautiful because of the tears kept on falling… really unstoppable.. i just hate the feeling and the person behind me.. how could you selfishly do that???? aside from the person behind me, there are 4 other people i would certainly not forget for making my college life miserable…
and for the people who had helped me stitched the final semester… THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! there are still some to thank for, AFTER ALL that had happened…
sa mga tumulong para mabuo ang "ONLINE SACRAMENTAL RECORD KEEPING SYSTEM OF IMMACULATE CONCEPTION PARISH, MALABON CITY".. special thanks to michelle, riz, yoj for helping us in our bloody thesis, sa mommy at daddy ni yoj sa pagpapa kain samin nung nag 3-day overnyt kme sknila, paul, and to the others who had helped us carry riz’s CPU… thanks to my father for driving me from caltex up to our house… and for his belief na KAYA KO ‘TO…he had been an inspiration… at sya ang unang naniwalang marunong ako… SALAMAT!!!
thanks to the PNB peeps… they all had been very good to me… especially mam jaja and sir macky… SALAMAT sa mataas na grade… hehehe…
to my friends aside from the first group mentioned… pepot, kenneth and gimo for my "solidum hymn" (leche kau…wag malakas ha!!! hahaha.., robby, gilbert, and to the original CM4C… see you all soon!!!
i guess i already have not forgotten anyone… except to gideon for all the efforts… thank you so much for your help (financial most specially)… i love you so much!!!
that’s all… wala ka noh???? hahahaha….
"I may not have earned d grade that i deserve, the best thing happened is i have learned a lot dat d ‘others’ supposed to learn…" - lyndsey
